this is college, i'm supposed to be finding myself

While engaged in a healthy conversation with my darling Caprisha, I exclaimed, "THIS IS COLLEGE, I'M SUPPOSED TO BE FINDING MYSELF", as I vented to her about the teaching style of some of my professors.

One of my biggest pet peeves is people trying to tell me how to feel. I despise it, deplore it, detest it, completely deny the notion that someone even possessed the audacity to try and manipulate my feelings on a matter. With that being said, I become very uncomfortable when professors in college impose their own opinions on subject matter and completely invalidate the opinions of students. As a Communications major, much of the material is left up for interpretation and can not necessarily be proven time and time again with the use of an algorithm or scientific method. 

Now, I totally understand that these professors have years of experience in the field, and I don't NOT believe them, I just wish they didn't state their positions. I, personally, feel as though it is the professors responsibility to (obviously) teach the subject matter, but also create a space that allows the students to explore their inner minds and fields of experience to conjure up opinions and stances on certain matters. By exposing their own personal opinion, me, as a student, will generally lean towards their stance without fully evaluating the situation first. Why? Because that's my professor! I'm not saying I don't have a mind of my own, but these are the people I look up to, the people who've worked in my field, gained connections and have now devoted their time to educate me. By exposing their own personal opinions, I feel that the opportunity to create my own stance on matters has vanished. 

My frustration with this teaching style will not end here at this blog post. I have plans to communicate with these professors, and future professors, expressing how being in a situation like this is disappointing. I appreciate everything my professors do for me, but in the end, my parents and I work hard so that I can afford this education and should be immersed in a space where I can receive that education and discover who I am in the process.

If you find that this happens to you, whether it be college, high school, or any educational opportunity, I encourage you to continually speak your truth.

Also!
I encourage everyone to swing by my portfolio to see my first photoshoot I've ever done where I was the shooter, in addition to some graphic design projects I've been working on in class.

Happy Hump Day!